All in Furry daughter

Thank you, Miracle Dog.

As I wallow in heartbreak, I clearly see the intensity of my pain is proportionate to the intensity of my love for my furry daughter. No offense, humans, but yesterday I lost my best friend.

As I navigate the palpable emptiness, my pants are still covered in fur and remind me of the freshness of this wound. Stepping in her water bowl slosh, the puddle reminds me of the free-flowing tears. Turning a corner and seeing her toy where she sat… only yesterday… is a sharp blow.

Yet.

1,000 Bonus Days 🐾

Thousands of walks when we thought each may be our last.  

Thousands of cuddles when we thought of the time we’d have no more.  

Thousands of nose pokes.  

Thousands of puppy dog looks to remind us she’d like some attention.  

A thousand days of reminders that our plan sketched on our napkin is only a guide, and the upcoming path is not crystal clear or particularly ordered.

The Miracle of Love. Or Lemons.

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Since we really didn’t want to make her miserable with painful surgery and regular stressful rides to the vet for chemo, I decided to make her comfortable at home.  Her mouth was tender from where the tumor had been cut to biopsy, I began to soak her lamb and rice food in water to soften it.  And… we increased her walks.  If she had as little as a few days left, we were going to make them happy.  She got 2 to 3 walks per day, with few lousy weather exceptions.  

At this point, we were mourning her every day.  She was still with us, but we were crying as we were watching her die.  It took me about 6 weeks to just focus on appreciating every day with her.